GOD,
HERE ARE SOME FEARS AND INAUTHENTICITIES REGARDING THE SECOND OF JANUARY WHEREIN THE MONIES FROM THE GENERAL RELIEF ARRIVES;
-THAT I WON'T BE RESPECTED IF I DON'T HAVE ANY MONIES
-THAT I CAN'T BE HAPPY WITHOUT MONIES
-THAT IF I DON'T HELP OUT IN THE HOUSEHOLD I WILL BE KICKED OUT
-THAT GREG DOESN'T KNOW WHAT IS GOOD FOR HIM?
-THAT GOD DOESN'T WANT ME TO HAVE ANY MONIES
-THAT SAUL IS GOING TO TRY TO KILL AND MURDER ME
-THAT GOD DOESN'T CARE ABOUT MONIES BUT MY EGO DOES
-THAT THE FAMILIAR WANTS ME TO HAVE MONIES
-THAT GOD DOESN'T ACTUALLY CARE IF I HAVE MONIES ARE NOT BUT JUST WANT GOD TO GET GOD WAY OUT OF THIS WAY, OUT OF GOD WAY
-THAT I WILL BE DISOWNED FROM THE FAMILIAR
-THAT HAPPINESS DOESN'T COME IN THE FORM OF MONIES
-THAT GOD IS NOT HERE AND THE DEVIL JUST RUNS THE ECONOMY
SILENTLY,
-THE ARCHER
M. came in room while in meeting. She began screaming and yelling and saying get off the f***ing phone greg. get off the f***ing phone.
Rectal pulsations and terror. facial confusion frozen and more tension. facial tension and rectal tension. heart tension. confusion. blood flowing to the head. head pressure.
lowered feelings. palpitations. unreality.
oh no she’s gonna abandon me again.
why is she angry with me this has nothing to do with me.
you suck.
step 3; what is angry and fearfulness temper?
(report your spotting of fearful or angry temper// the recovery tools we used to help yourself, and your self-endorsement for your effort?)
-angry temper in the form of disgust
-feelings of inadequcy, sense of shame, despair, hopelessness, worry, embarassment, preoccupation and discouragement
TWO FACES OF TEMPER!
TOOLS FOR THESE;
HELPLESSNESS IS NOT HOPELESSNESS
ENDORSE YOURSELF FOR THE EFFORT NEVER FOR THE PERFORMANCE
HAVE THE COURAGE TO MAKE A MISTAKE
FEAR IS A BELIEF AND BELIEFS CAN BE CHANGED
ANTICIPATION IS OFTEN WORSE THAN REALIZATION
BEAR THE DISCOMFORT IN ORDER TO GAIN COMFORT
HURT FEELINGS ARE JUST BELIEFS NOT SHARED
PEOPLE DO THINGS THAT ANNOY US NOT NECESSARILY TO ANNOY US
STEP 4; BEFORE WHAT I WAS USED TO DOING WAS WHEN M. AND HER RAGE PIQUED I WOULD START TO DEVOLVE A PLAN TO STEAL HER PHARMACEUTICALS AND WOULD TAKE HER ANGER PERSONALLY AS OPPOSED TO SEEING IT AS SOMETHING THAT IS BUT A SYMPTOM OF HER CONDITION AND NOT MINE?
(ENDORSE MYSELF FOR HOW DIFFERENTLY I HANDLED THE SITUATION. GOOD JOB GREG, YOU ROCK AND YOU ARE AWESOME AT RESPONDING TO DIFFICULT SITUATIONS.)
WE PARALYZE OURSELVES WITH NEEDLES FEEARS?
ITS HARD TO BE COMFORTABLE IN AN UNCOMFORTABLE SITUATION
PEACE VS. POWER
HOLLOW VICTORY
ACCEPT THEM OR REJECT THEM SILENTLY REJECT THEM TO OURSELVES
I WAS COMPLETELY FRIED
HOOKED ON GAMES ANDREW DOAN